For You

Found this recently and thought I'd post. This is one of my first attempts at poetry, and what really got me writing more of it:

Standing, hands clasped in cold numbness

A wisp of thin smoke escapes my dry lips

Disappears, just as quick

Glassy and stinging with rigid tears

My eyes respond to the crisp wind

It comes and goes

They stare, blank at first and then shifting up

It is dark and gray

Ominous the clouds that crowd the sky

I’ve got a home in the sky.

A dark bird circles and glides solemnly across

Enveloped suddenly it seems by the generous clouds

Standing, frozen, waiting I continue to stare

Now in disbelief, the clouds are shifting,

Thoughts circle like the bird

My mind is not right

Thin smoke flutters again from my lips

A sigh escapes along with it

I’m gonna tell this world goodbye

To leave is to be gone, to be gone is to have left

To wait is to have hope,

To have hope and know that it, they, he, she has left

That is hard.

From the start there

Sweet the music, enjoyment of the sound there

Nothing, nothing can replace that.

That is hard.

We’re gonna be caught up together.

The pain, the anger, seep into the memory

Why? How? What really happened?

They crowd my thoughts like panicked bats

Wings fluttering furiously in escape

How coulds, what ifs, float by

It is not fair, it is too soon.

Disbelief my eyes continue to reflect

Now what?

You see I’m gonna fly away.

Though the pain still lingers, the heart cannot help but feel

It is all part of His plan

The emotions are real, mixed, meant

But his divine will must be done

Hands clasped, thawing slowly within me

Time stares back listlessly on my wrist

It’s chariot is flying by ever so near me

But I am still here.

It happened

Loved, cherished, beautiful

Gone.

Gone on beyond the clouds.

But I am still here

Comes and goes

We are still here.

I will be free, free.